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Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Modest Outfit Inspiration

Seems to me that being modest is harder in winter than in summer, my modest dressing strategy of late has become something along the lines of wear tight jeans or pants and wear something on top that covers the behind, skirts and looser pants are just not practical for this kind of weather.

Some stylish and modest outfits; 








Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Love

I've wanted to be a wife and mother for as long as I can remember. That dream got tainted during my teenage years by the definition of love I saw in movies , R&B videos and romantic novels. I got sucked into the illusion that you had to look a certain way and be a certain kind of woman to receive that kind of all consuming love , for the rest of us we had to make do with much less.

I think back on all the years that I could have prepared for this moment and I didn't because I could not believe that an amazing Godly man could want to be with someone like me. I didn't trust that the God who has given me everything I've ever needed up till this point would also see to this desire that he created in my heart. I am trying not to get too ahead of myself but I thank God for this moment and for his grace and mercy.


Monday, February 4, 2013

2013

Eish once again I've been slacking from regular posting here...
Can't believe it's February already, 2013 has been amazing thus far the best thing so far being the fact that I finally found a church close to my house, a biblically sound and practicing church.

 The things I want to try to live by this year;












Thank you Lord for one more year.


Thursday, December 13, 2012

Avoiding Work

The last week of work in 2012 and unfortunately work is the last thing on my mind right now. With my cousin's passing and school results coming out , reflecting on 2012 in general and daydreaming about Christmas bonuses , I am finding it hard to focus on work.


This is a outfit I wore to church last sunday.
The dress I've had for a while and it's from Woolies, the shoes I got 2 weeks ago from Truworths ( I think I should get another pair, I love them so much).

Monday, December 10, 2012

Time

It's 6 pm I am still sitting in my office at work...I received the most terrible of news today. I didn't lose my job or have my car stolen or any of those things that always seem to make me so anxious.
...Someone I love so dearly passed on and I did not tell them about Christ. I did not tell her that he loves her beyond measure and that he knows her intimately.
She is gone from this twisted world which used her and then spit her out in her prime. I didn't tell her that all she needed to do was to believe and accept him as her saviour , repent and he would have forgiven her of everything.
I pray to God that someone else spoke to her...I thought I had more time and I failed you young one.

Father Please Forgive Me...

Ezekiel 33:6
6 But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet and the people are not warned, and a sword comes and takes a person from them, he is taken away [a]in his iniquity; but his blood I will require from the watchman’s hand.’

Friday, December 7, 2012

Modest Clothing

I recently had the opportunity to study and meditate on 1 Tim 2:9-10;


9 I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, 10 but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.. (NIV)


I have read this scripture before but this time reading it led me on a search to find out what modest, decent aand proper clothing for a christian woman would be and what the bible says in general about how I should look.
Other Scriptures that I found include: 1 Pet. 3:3-4

 3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4 Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (NIV)

Pro. 31:22 b


...she is clothed in fine linen and purple.


 Soooo....for most of my life I have dressed in a way that may be described as modest, unfortunately this style of dress wasn't based on the fact that I wanted to please God. My aesthetic is just generally geared towards simplicity and modesty.
However during the past few months ( When I've been going through a couple of things involving relationships with the opposite sex) jeans have been becoming tighter ( Wayyyy tight in some cases) , hemlines are being raised and make-up is perhaps being over applied.

In my previous church modesty was preached extensively and I always thought that I was on the safe side of things and never took a chance to honetly examine myself. After this search and going through videos on youtube and articles , I think I have more of an understanding of why I should be modestly dressed and as such can look at myself objectively. My clothes are not always reflective of the fact that I am a christian.
I plan to change this in every area of my life; this includes the beach, swimming pools, the gym, school , church and especially work.
Words that I wish to portray in my new style of dressing are; simplicity, modesty , discretion , beauty and frugality. The idea is that my clothes frame my face but not frame my body and leave it up to inspection. I got this dose of wisdom from one of Paul Washer's videos on biblical womanhood.
From my study and the counsel of others I do not believe that dressing modestly would exclude me from wearing pants, make-up or earrings, instead I believe that I should strive to dress in such a way so as to not bring attention to my body and promote sensuality.

Soooo I know this is a long post about somewhat of a controversial subject but I am convicted to do this, right now I am sitting in one of my old pair of jeans (Which is too tight) and a t-shirt, I have not yet begun this 'adventure' but I plan to. I am not sure of my motivations right now , I am not even sure of how I'll go about basically revamping my entire wardrobe but I will learn and it will happen.
 I'll upload outfits once in a while just to maybe show myself that I can be modest, decent and discrete whilst still being stylish.



Ciao

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I will wait for you

It's long but worth the read:

I Will Wait…for You” — Janette Ikz

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me.
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,

Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..

You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!

So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me

Arties so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!

So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You..
You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention

And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held

Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’

NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you,
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…

So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.

If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.

But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.

But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business

Oh, I will always be Yours!

And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…

More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT.

Just In case you had not seen it check it out here; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igCj3jsbcqs